“What is gradually emerging is that the leading edge of my own development is deepening and clarifying my relationship with my wife, Rebekah.  This is an awesome yet shocking realization – awesome in terms of [...]]]>

Two days ago I wrote major post to the polyphasic sleep blog (which is where I put my thoughts-in-formation), excerpted below:

“What is gradually emerging is that the leading edge of my own development is deepening and clarifying my relationship with my wife, Rebekah.  This is an awesome yet shocking realization – awesome in terms of the possibilities, and shocking in that this had not been obvious to me before.  In my usual masculine, goal-oriented, single-pointed consciousness, bulldozer style of being, I have been speeding forward without great awareness or concern for the people around me and their needs.  Perhaps this was developmentally appropriate and timely – and I can hardly complain about the results – but the time has come to get this handled.  It may also be possible that “getting this handled” is a masculine problem-solving approach towards a situation that is likely to be a lifetime of work – oh lucky me to have such an interesting problem to solve, as the problem of relating lovingly and deeply and powerfully all the time to the person with whom I have chosen to share my life (and my business!).”

This is classic Morehouse philosophy.  Interesting how I’ve come full-circle here.

In addition I want to report some very big wins:

• We have two trial residents at Trellis right now, with a third expected next weekend.  All of them very cool people.  This is pretty wild, and it gets intense as we try and put on a good show for trial residents.  It’s a major production, but well worth it – having new people here generally ups everyone’s level of fun and attention.  I also just completed a major upgrade to  the Trellis House website.  We are on the map now and we aren’t going away.
• I wrote the skeleton website for my new internet marketing and social media consulting company over the weekend, Everyman Marketing, including two good articles – check out the lead article Why traditional website publishing is dead (and why you should use Wordpress or similar CMS instead).  Also my Project Mojave group (internet business development group) has started in earnest and I have two very committed members (PS: It’s not too late to join!)
• I am coaching one-on-one with Saniel Bonder, who is an effin’ genius
• And, I have two other high-power developmental groups going, plus one in formation:  I have a half-hour weekday Mastermind call with two friends that has been amazing; I have a group of friends from Shalom Mountain exploring awakening within Waking Down in Mutuality; and we are starting a 4-part course here at Trellis in a few weeks called Conscious Eating that I am very excited about.  I am also very excited about Mark Hyman’s book The Ultramind Solution, which is about how nutrition and self-care affects our cognitive capacity and resilience.  This is so right-on for me right now.

And yet I continue to be challenged by my caffeine addiction, relationship with Rebekah, juggling time and money, worries and anxieties about the future, etc…  Same old, same old. Why is life so complicated?

But my situation is by no means unusual.  Half the people I know are in some kind of major crisis or life transition right now…

Half the people that I am working with these days are struggling in some way – to support their families, find their passion, relate creatively and compassionately to their partners, deal with health issues… Situations that are almost surreal abound, magical encounters and synchronicities are commonplace, many of us can barely tell what is up and what is down, and virtually all of us are worried about something or other.  It would not be too much to say that life as we know it is getting turned upside down.

By comparison with what I am seeing all around me, in fact, my own life occurs as “a walk through the tulips”.  I am living my dream and I have my Beloved, after all – what could be better?

“Love and work… work and love, that’s all there is.”

– Sigmund Freud

So here is my inspirational quote for the day:

“Don’t worry, you are going to be alright.”

– Marc Beneteau

I know that of which I speak.